A year passing by faster each year. Used to remember years passes by so slow when I was still in high school. I am sure everyone has been through the good & the bads. Nobody’s perfect. You love and you loss love. People come and they go.
Some time last year I was excited for 2011, which is the bunny year, since I am one myself. They tell you it’s a bad year for bunnies. I refused to believe. And it did. It has been a bad year for me. Period. Positivity leads me to zero. Negatives things keep hunting me. It’s devastating. Because when I was twelve, I always thought, when I am 24, I am going to have money and travel with my loved ones. No it did not happen. I guess growing up wasn’t so much fun after all. It’s like a film process after all. There’s always beginning, middle & an end. And I guess I am in the middle at the moment.
No matter what I do, I always try not to get myself into the dark side. I guess Darth Vader is just standing next to me provoking what I ought doing or don’t.
Still, trying to sound not so sappy & as if I am almost falling into the well. I guess the Positive Plant has to be planted in the head. Always looking forward. I wish my bunny friends would be doing better in the Dragon year & I love you all. Miss the times where we never had to worry about any single thing except studying. That also, I didn’t do well. But glad I went college and met new experiences in life. I miss those days. I am growing now and learning to love & let go. Arwah Yasmin always tell people to love & people too, they say love will find its way. Not in my case I don’t. My love don’t get conveyed & it brought hatred.
I don’t want to live in hate. I now know why some people just want to be bitches. Because you grabbed love you can get and you create chaos so other people would suffer.
Glad to be next to my sister. She gives me lots of love. Wish dad’s doing good over there at east. Looking into the mirror, I no longer see young ruby. It’s passed on. Hoping dragon year would bring you prosperity, health & wealth. Me too, I want to fatt choi also.
Happy New Year, 2012.